Reminiscing

Today I was reminiscing about when Hattie was a newborn. When I look at her now as she approaches the 10 month mark, I think, "Where did the time go?!?!" It feels like only yesterday we were bringing her home from the hospital and adjusting to our new life. Now I can't remember life without her, and I am shocked at how quickly I felt that way.

I remember the first few weeks when she was home with us how she wanted to be held 24/7. Now she wants to discover life on her own (as long as Mommy is in view). She is so curious! When I look at her today, she often reminds me more of an exploring toddler than a cuddly newborn. I use to have to put her to sleep lying on top of my stomach, and then I would carefully roll her onto the bed and quietly place pillows all around her so she wouldn't fall off (as if she could roll!). Then I would check on her every 10 minutes to make sure she was still breathing. That's the only way I could get her to fall asleep, and that only worked 50% of the time.

I remember the first time she smiled at me and how Sean refused to believe it because he wasn't there for it. Hattie smiled for him a few days later, and THAT was her first smile :0). Now she smiles and laughs all day long, and I see her humor developing more and more. The biggest laugh that I ever got out of her was when I recently stuck one of her old pacis in MY mouth and proceeded to suck on it. She thought that was a HOOT!

I remember the first time she slept through the night at 2 months old. I awoke in a panic and was sure she was dead, only to go in and find my peaceful baby fast asleep in her crib. I woke her up to make sure and then nursed her. It was a comfort nurse for Mommy that time. Now I almost panic if she makes a peep before morning.

I remember feeling her kicks when she was inside of me. Now I get to feel them on the outside :0).

I remember in the beginning how so many moms told me that I would forget how hard it is when they are so tiny, and I have, but I will remember what NOT to do because Sean and I made SO MANY mistakes. It's almost comical. Thank God Hattie won't remember them!

These past 10 months have gone by so fast, and when I include my pregnancy it blows my mind to think that we have known about Hattie for almost 19 months! And it's hard for me to believe that just the other day I was searching online for birthday invitation ideas for Hattie's first birthday.

Finally, I just have to post a few newborn pics of Hattie. These are a few of my favorites.






Now when Sean and I hear about a couple who are expecting their first child, we kind of giggle to each other saying, "Do you think they have a clue what they are getting into!?!?" We sure didn't. I look back at that time now and miss those first weeks. It was such a sweet, emotional, crazy time in our lives, and I smile when I reminisce about the days when Hattie was a newborn.